All I want to know right now... - I wish I lived in my dreams...

Chels. I had a dream about you and Aaron last night. It was so vivid and cool.

I came to visit you in Japan. Someone came along with me and I only just realised now that it was Michael. Which felt wrong because he had to be all sneaky. Well first off, you and Aaron lived in campervan. It was totally decked out though and you had satellite TV, a spa in your bathroom and everything. It was really big too so I have no clue how it drove on the road! But anyways you guys lived in the Navy section of your base and Aaron left to go to work shortly after us arriving there. Here's the weirdest part of the dream. Aaron was some really preppy, geeky white guy with this really bad haircut who was doing this weird dance. Chels, you were exactly the same and you were egging him on, cheering on his strange dance. And the weird thing is I knew something wasn't right! HAHA. But after Aaron left we wanted to have a look around the island and you got angry with us and when we finally persuaded you to come along with us you wouldn't take us anywhere. We ended up hanging out at this patch of lawn all day and eating these really sour lollies! I think it was some party or soemthing. Then I lost my rabbit. Why I took her to Okinawa with me who knows but I remember chasing her along some gravel and then the island was a caravan park. We went and visited my cousin who was living in a caravan with her boyfriend and you were really nice all of a sudden. We were all speaking about really intelligent stuff. Chemistry, I think, but noone would listen to my side of things. And I was talking really intellectually too. Actual chemistry stuff. Very strange. In the end we left there cause I was going to punch my stuck up cousin cause she was being really snooty and we went back to your campervan which was parked by the beach and we had a party with Patrick Swayze.

Strange dream, no?

I saw Michael today. Well I think it was him. I was walking through town on my way to paying my bills and as I was at the ATM I saw two white vans parked outside the Telstra shop. They had blue writing on them so I walked down past them and they had "Vince Williams Electrical" on them so they were his. I went and paid my bills and then on the way back I cut through KMart Plaza and as I left the building I saw a tall blonde bloke and and old fella standing next to the vans and talking. They were a bit far away. I was too scared to go and talk to them so I went the opposite direction and later on I messaged him about seeing him. I still haven't heard from him and I am so fucking over it. Tomorrow I am going to go out and have some fun. I need some fun. I need something good.

I realised that I haven't been happy for a long time. Ever since I got back to Australia, and possibly even before that, things have been shit. Things were looking up when I met Mick. Not just cause I met him but because I felt happy, confident, Uni was going well and I was starting soemthing new. Now everything sucks. I have assignments piling around my ears, I am fat and alone and in severe debt. My life is awesome. Oh and my Mother can't stand talking to me on the phone but wants to fly to another country and spend time with my brother. Awesome.


And what's the go with my sleeping patterns? I passed out sitting in my chair after I finished my coffee this morning and missed classes AND my psychologists appointment!!!